A Trained Habit

In the past two weeks, I was too tired with a thousand thoughts in my mind thinking about the things I should do. It happened when I took some times off and entertained myself by watching some videos. It was on one movie where the actors discussed the things that I was wondering. on that occasion, the actor A was so curious of how the actor B becomes a very smart and diligent student. 

Then the B said, “at first, I just do it because I concern about my condition. I saw my parent sacrificing a lot of things because of me so that I need to put myself on it. But, after I did it again and again, it has become my habit. The things that I used to think as a burden now become a need. A small problem has turned into the big one which automatically compels me to take care of it. In no time I forget about complaining and live my life like this.”

Those words then teach me to reevaluate myself on things that I’ve done in fulfilling my dream. I realized that I trained myself on the opposite way. I keep postponing myself to finish my tasks. I wrote a list of plans, but I didn’t really depend on it. Then I complained about all the things coming after.

I know it’s not easy, but how if I force myself to do it in routine for several times and let it be a habit. I believe it will work as the same way and as the effect I can stop complaining.

It is not because I can’t. But it is because I won’t.

So, from now on I will keep trying to compel myself in doing it so that later on I can enjoy comfortably. 
Because those smart and diligent things are also The Trained Habit.